Lack of innocence

The state, quality, or virtue of being innocent, as:
Freedom from sin, moral wrong, or guilt through lack of knowledge of evil.
Guiltlessness of a specific legal crime or offense.
Freedom from guile, cunning, or deceit; simplicity or artlessness.
Lack of worldliness or sophistication; naiveté.
Lack of knowledge or understanding; ignorance.
Freedom from harmfulness; inoffensiveness.

Ok,this is what the dictionary tells you... But the innocence of being able to be patronized, trusting someone blindly,never have to ration emotions or thoughts,is innocence to me.
The freedom of being able to say I love you to the person who does not love you at all, the freedom of saying I miss you to someone who dint even know you existed...
The child in each one of us,that has been killed by our own doings, and our own friends and foes...

being aware...

awareness...
aware of your emotions,surroundings,people,actions,lack of actions,love,hate,compassion,anxiety,situations,judgment,prejudices...

Maybe that's why they say "Ignorance is bliss"

Sometimes when you can see right through a person,it kinda kills the mystery and a lot of angst,and makes the person totally naked. Kills it somewhere...

The dates mentioned above are of the holiday I went for…
20th May- Blore airport, with Aarti(my sister) waiting for our dear friend Mudamma, who is the master planner behind this trip.
1st destination Delhi more like a pit stop- so we land at the Delhi airport with bag and baggage and wondering where to go, so we get some information about the metro train, and head towards the Metro station in Dwarka. So we buy this metro pass which you can use for the whole day, 100/- for a card, that deducts the kms you traveled as you go along. Very cool.
So we head towards the closest mall (obviously, 3 women, what would one expect us to do other than that)
Rajouri garden the Lifestyle store. In the Metro train we behaved like real tourists, since we were super fascinated, considering the metro in blore seems like a distant dream. We clicked pictures from our mobile phones, and people in the train had a suspicious look, probably thinking, are these 3 women are capable of scheming a bomb blast, kinds.
Ok so we reach the Lifestyle store, and act like we’ve never been to a mall before. I think going out of your city, does that to people. So we did our bit, and due to a time constraint, we quickly headed back to our cool metro train. So at the station we as typical tourists looking all lost, I stopped a nice looking chap and said, we need to go to the New Delhi railway station. He was very unlike a typical Delhite( we all know, the reputation Delhi has, specially considering women)asked us to follow him, and was very kicked about the fact that we were from Bangalore.(wonder why) So we landed at the station, and we had to run across 6 platforms to the 1st one to board our train. And Aarti, who’s suitcase, was heavy, and had no wheels to drag it, was having a tough time… So I take her suitcase, and put it on my head, and walk through all the platforms. I had the boys at the subways, yelling at me “Coolie aye Coolie” nevertheless, we made it to the train, and were on our way to Jammu, our next destination.

just...

Expectations…

1.	the act or the state of expecting: to wait in expectation.

2.	the act or state of looking forward or anticipating.

3.	an expectant mental attitude: a high pitch of expectation.

4.	something expected; a thing looked forward to.

5.	Often, expectations. a prospect of future good or profit: to have great expectations.

6.	the degree of probability that something will occur: There is little expectation that he will come.

Is it easy to just stop expecting? Why do we expect? Why do all relationships, become so calculated?

A Lie…

1.	a false statement made with deliberate intent to deceive; an intentional untruth; a falsehood.

2.	something intended or serving to convey a false impression; imposture:

3.	an inaccurate or false statement.

We all lie, lie to save our asses, lie to show something we are not, lie to impress, lie to look good…

The most effortless way according to me is to be yourself.

Alive…

1. having life; living; existing; not dead or lifeless.
2. in a state of action; in force or operation; active: to keep hope alive.

I am hoping i`m gonna live once… and I am not doing justice to this one life I have.

Let go…

to move or proceed, esp. to or from something:

to leave a place; depart

to act so as to come into a certain state or condition: